I never knew how hard motherhood would be.

It’s hard. Really hard.

When your baby is sick, you feel helpless. You want to fix it, and most times you can. A visit to the pediatrician, some extra love…

When your toddler gets hurt, you feel helpless. You want to fix it, and again, most times you can. Sometimes just a bandaid and a kiss is all it takes.

Sometimes you can’t fix it. Not completely. Those times weigh heavy on your heart. Motherhood sometimes feels impossible.

You think when they are older, motherhood will get easier. You are a fool.

Motherhood never gets easier.

When your kids are older, well…these are the times that will literally bring you to your knees.

Every hurt, every heartbreak, every disappointment hits you square in the heart. You feel it all. When they are stressed, you wake up with a heaviness on your chest that won’t let up.

Is it just me? Am I different than other moms? I don’t know, though I don’t think so.

You love beyond measure so you feel it all….way too much? Is that it? You pray constantly for them. For God to keep them safe, to look out for them when you can’t.

Motherhood is hard. So incredibly hard.

I never knew…